A new Journey

A new Journey begins today, My Liam is in respite and I am flying to Bali, Some people question my selfish occassion to leave the country despite my limited means and my children. I assure none of these 'trips' are ever done lightly, alot of planning time and effort goes into such excursions, be it tractor pulling, holidaying or just taking a few hours out of my home life to just be me. I am a person besides being a mother, a friend, a therapist, a dietician, a partner, a daughter, I am all of these things and more but there is also a part of me that is simply me... the part that enjoys quiet reflection, traveling, Nature, photography and reading. There is a part of me that craves these things when times get tough, I love the freedom of being on the motorbike with my friend as we zoom through the city with the wind surrounding me and shifting all the weight of the day to somewhere that I dont have to worry about, I can give it back to the universe and be at peace, My camera is probably my best friend, to see a shot and work towards it, to capture the beauty of llife surrounding me that doesnt involve equipment or discipline or planning or hospitals or appointments,  I love spending time in the bush just planting my feet down on the earth and letting the mother land soak up all the pain and hurt that life can sometimes give. The simplicity of it all is refreshing. My holidays, mean so much to me, they let me see the world through eyes that dont belong to me, to see how other people live and take stock of the good things in my life, spending that time with my partner or dear friends having time that is just us. doing whatever we feel like on the day without the planning of medication times or buses or feeding times. I love my children and I enjoy the time I get to be me so I can better enjoy the other part of me that is so vitally important to their wellbeing and happiness. To share those times with my partner and show him that I love him so much that I ache for him and want him to also be happy. My life is mine, and I do what I do with the knowledge I have at the time, be it wrong or be it right, it is my responsibility and no one has the right to make those judgements save the people it affects directly.